The Lows That Make the Highs
The last couple days have been a bit brutal. Crazy busy and a harsh turn of events left me stressed out and nearly in tears. I'm feeling better now that I've slept in this fine Saturday morning but yesterday nearly broke me. Yesterday I attempted to turn on my computer to find a message stating "Physical Memory Dumped" ... I was sure I'd lost absolutely everything: my theatre portfolio, my pictures, my music... everything. And none of it saved anywhere else. I had evening code so I closed my computer silently telling myself that maybe it'll work in a couple hours and walked down to class. Halfway there I tripped and fell down three steps skidding across the pavement. This is when I began to wonder if things could get any worse. I wiped away tears of frustration and devastation and sat through an hour of English A1. Feeling better, after eating dinner, I went back to the house and found our resident computer genuis. Alex lives in France and is probably the smartest person I know. "My computer is dead" I told him. Carefully he straightened his carpet, retrieved his miracle software program and followed me upstairs. Anyway... after typing into his program a series of commands that were really really confusing to me, he still didn't have time enough but he says he can save all the important files and could maybe do something about the computer itself. I was happy for that at least but completely drained and spent the night just chilling and relaxing. Today is a new day with its strange welsh weather (sunny turns to lashing, windy rain in a matter of seconds before abruptly switching back) ... I'm going to make it better than yesterday!! Miss you all despretely and hope you're all having a better time of life than I. I just keep telling myself... its these low points that make the good times really really good. Thats just how AC is.
Not really as depressed as this email suggests...
Malia
posted by Malia @ 12:56 PM
4 Comments
4 Comments:
Your optimism is an inspiration! Luv ya!
-Elaine
Hi Malia, sounds like your days are so wonderfully full! Those stumbles and storms keep us closer to our centers, but, they burn way too much energy sometimes I know.
This is kind of family stuff, and not all that cheerfull, but, I had to put Yallsee down last Friday morning. It was the most peaceful horse "passing" I have been a part of, I am certain this was a magical blessing. She was 32 in 2007, sometime in the spring she was born on the Wind River Reservation (Wyoming) in 1975. She was a part of all of our family's lives, I even have photos of my mom and dad on her!
I wanted to keep you in the family loop with this.
Hey, Malia, keep on making adventures and keep in touch. Love you so much, Jenny
I hope your computer friend was able to recover everything from your computer! It's okay to cry when you're having a bad day, especially if nobody's watching :) But you already handle bad days better than most people I know, including myself. Impressive. Keep it up. Miss you!
Traci
I found that the first semester back (and its usually the winter semester with all the gloomy weather) after the first holiday visit home is the worst. You've just been reminded of all the good things from home and now your back to the new environment, but its not new anymore (a semester old) AND its just lots of work. Well all the good stuff you've got planned will start to replace the low feelings soon and I guarantee you'll have some NEW thing that will just jazz you up (just the benefits of being young). I'm rehabbing in music city - I can put weight on my achilles!! Looking forward to walking in cowboy boots soon. Looks like I have a few new projects. One involves cleantech (change the world, save the planet stuff that you like so much) and one involves a big Internet company. Anyway, keep on blogging.
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